March has been incredibly difficult for me, and I am very grateful it's almost over. I have struggled against depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety, and impulses to self-harm... And God has been here with me every step of the way. Every panic attack, every time I cry myself to sleep, every self-doubt- all of it. And when I was at my lowest God sent me angels - from both sides of the veil- to comfort me. God sent me Carter to give me hope of a future worth staying alive for. God sent me Tessa to take away my scissors. God sent me my dear mother to send me funny memes and inspirational quotes, and to stay up talking with me until four in the morning. God sent me Caroline to make sure I was okay when I was crying at midnight. God sent me Lauren to get me out of the house. God gave me a bishop, and teachers, and a wonderful therapist to be voices of guidance in the darkness. God sent my angel grandmother to watch over me, to protect me from myself when
My life since AMIGOS has felt like a dream. I keep expecting to wake up back in Costa Rica. As I've been applying to colleges, I've had many chances to reflect on my experiences thanks to college application essays. The following essay I wrote as part of my application to the Westminster Honors College. The prompt was: Discuss the most interesting conversation you have had in the last year. What made it so interesting? Let me know what you think. On July 16th at around 7pm I wandered out of my small room in search of food and companionship. I had just finished writing a letter home to my mother in Salt Lake City about my experiences that week in Costa Rica. The sky was beginning to darken through the window, and the house was strangely quiet for that time of day. Usually my host father would have arrived home. My host mother, Mirna, would be cooking dinner and the smell would permeate the house and flood through the cracks in my bedroom door. My host brother would be wat